For a long time, I was always looking away for the new thing to appear. I was never really satisfied with what I had. It was madding, because I was never happy with what I had. Even though, I would have something really good. It is a character flaw in mankind. We all share this flaw and must overcome the effects of it. If we want to be happy with ourselves and the people around us, we need to work on this. It creates in us a self-loathing and very destruction life cycle. When I was in college, I tried to fill that void with alcohol. Other people use any and every thing to fill up their lives. I began to search for the answer to this problem. I don’t know if I was not smart about it or just stubborn. But it took me the better part of 10 years to find the answer. And from my side of it, I stumbled into the answer. Although, I was lead carefully to the answer. And even when I was staring into the face of the answer, I couldn’t see it. These 2 men took their time and began to carefully explain it to me. Even though, they weren’t talking directly to me, they were. It took 3 months of listening to them to explain the solution to me. I finally came to the understanding, that I was a sinner and separated from God. When I turned to God and asked Him to forgive me, I finally felt worthwhile. Then began my walk with God and the understanding of what He did for me. That God sacrificed all so I would become one of His sons. I don’t look for the new anymore, because I became the new creation.
Joseph1637/Crain Blanchard 