In Matthew 20:20-23, this scripture talks about James, John and their mother came to Jesus and asked if they could sit on His left hand and right hand in heaven. Jesus said you don’t know what you are asking. I can’t give that to you because the Father has already assigned those seats. But what I can do is that you can enter into My baptism. James and John both said yes. Jesus woke me up one morning 40 years ago with this scripture. Once He explained what the scriptures meant, Jesus turn to me and asked if I would enter into His baptism. If you don’t know what Jesus’s baptism is. It is the baptism of death. It’s the cross. Jesus looked at me and asked. He didn’t say that I would come out on the other side. For me He meant actual death. It took me 3 days to decide. I knew that if I didn’t, I would miss God’s plan for my life. That was 40 years ago. What I have found is that there is no other way to live. What I gained for out weights what my life could have gained. So I know that at any time my life will be required. It’s the only life to live. I am crucified with Christ.